All it would take is a jump for everything to be left behind.
People tell you to be free, to be yourself. Then when you turn your back, they point at your scars and laugh.
Being easily attached to someone is no good, especially when you barely know that person. But when I see you, I just want to hold you in my arms all day long and breathe in your scent. I want you to know how it feels like to be loved unconditionally, even if it is for a moment. I want you to be mine.
Moments that will be forever etched in my mind. Those few minutes in your car meant the world to me.
And just like that, my world comes tumbling down.
My favorite dreams are those in which you appear. They make me feel like somehow, you are still mine, even if for a moment. In my dreams, you are so real. I can feel you and smell you. And most of the time, I want to take you into my arms and never let you go. I want you to know that you are mine. Dreams make you realise what you want, and what I want is you.
(the password to my heart is 1602)
Things I learnt today:
1. Always bring your IC, especially during exams.
2. Never tell people your secrets, it’s better they die with you.
3. Never lend your new pens to “friends” because you are never getting them back.
Music is best heard with your eyes closed.
Even after 19 years, do you not know me? Because it really hurts when all you do it push the knife in deeper than it already is. You just keep pushing and pushing, one day you will look up from my wounds and find out that I’m already gone. And by then, it will be too late. Too late to remember the little things that irk me, too late to realize that all I wanted was for you to love me the way I loved you. When you take twist on that blade, remember that you gave up on us long before I did.
Sometimes I wish that people will surprise me and message me for no reason at all, just to remind me that I am worth something. Funny links, cute videos, just a ‘hi’ would suffice.
Too emotionally attached to everyone and everything.
Distancing myself from you in hopes of not breaking down when you finally leave.
How do I tell you that sometimes I think of you and smile.